it's not much about me, well it's part of, however it's mostly about my mother who have two face with me... she acts as if I'm her sweetest son, in my mind wtf, cuz I tell my mom that I want to go to colleges out of state, and she's whining about the money issues, and she thinks as if I will ignore and not talk to her for a long time. Until we goes to the deaf club and social, there's one person that asks me what I will do in couple of months, I tell that person that I want to go colleges or something like that, then all of suddenly my mom show up and said oh yeah I support and encourage my son to go college, then I gave her a cold-stare eyes and gave her the 'wtf talk to my mom on the way back home in the car that she don't want me to go cuz of many issues now she's okay with it. I don't even know who my mother is... I'll be 21 in few weeks, yay for me, but sometime I wonders if my mother is my own real mother or not even though my birth certificates show she borned me... I'm embarrassed to go to public with my mom. I know I'm her last baby but still she can talk to my other 3 bro and sisters.
