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I am a hearing man and this is my story of a the deaf woman I lost. I first met this incredible woman 23 years ago while working at a Connecticut school where she was a student. I said to myself wow what an incredibly beaqutiful woman when I first saw her. She saw me looking and came over without any reservation and began to talk to me. She talked very well and read lips. We talked for awhile and then parted. About week later I get a relay call telling me someone wanted to speak with me at work. I had a tty machine so I hook up and who is it but that very same young woman. We talk and she wants me to meet her at home. I did and for the next 2 years we were always together and got along wonderful together. She decided to go to college in Northwest CT which was a ways away and it made it convenient for me to walk away because in that two years I fell in love with her but was never able to tell her because I was afraid.
Now it is 22 years later and I by chance find her on facebook. We chat she remembers me and we meet again. We again begin to spend alot of time together and catch up on our lives. She has had a few failed and abusive relationships and two wonderful hearing children. I have two failed relationships and am divorced and have children too. She just so happens to run a business that I have interest in so it makes easy to be around alot. It took me a few months but I finally got courage to tell her how I felt before and to say I felt that way all over again. I was so in love with her. She is just an incredibly bright smart and fun person. She said she knew I felt that way. And we did become closer and god she was still so beautiful to me and it was like a dream come true when we started to be somewhat intimate and she told me she had feelings for me. We got along fine for awhile but then we had a few arguments over dumb things and mostly because of the communication gap which though not too bad was still there. And she gave the impression by things she said and did that there was a trust issue and that I was out to wrong her. I later learned from a friend of hers that is a professional interpretor that this is common in the deaf/hearing world. Anyway over the course of several months things between us got better and then worse again. This is now about a year later. We still talk to each other and she says she still wants friendship but that if I talk to her anymore about love that she will walk away. I tell you I am trying very hard to honor her but in doing so I have become so depressed emotionally and physically because of it. It is the hardest thing in life I have ever had to do and I dont know if I even can. It is like being asked the impossible. I had my dream woman in my life and I wanted nothing more than to honor and love her for the rest of my life but now all that is gone and I cant turn back time and change anything and she I guess does not have it in her to forgive easily. It is such a shame because all who saw us together were always like wow you guys are so good together. I am still trying to hang in and hope that she will change her mind and open her heart again but I just dont know if I can keep hanging on. I know she is worth it but I am so lost on what to do.
I am a hearing man and this is my story of a the deaf woman I lost. I first met this incredible woman 23 years ago while working at a Connecticut school where she was a student. I said to myself wow what an incredibly beaqutiful woman when I first saw her. She saw me looking and came over without any reservation and began to talk to me. She talked very well and read lips. We talked for awhile and then parted. About week later I get a relay call telling me someone wanted to speak with me at work. I had a tty machine so I hook up and who is it but that very same young woman. We talk and she wants me to meet her at home. I did and for the next 2 years we were always together and got along wonderful together. She decided to go to college in Northwest CT which was a ways away and it made it convenient for me to walk away because in that two years I fell in love with her but was never able to tell her because I was afraid.
Now it is 22 years later and I by chance find her on facebook. We chat she remembers me and we meet again. We again begin to spend alot of time together and catch up on our lives. She has had a few failed and abusive relationships and two wonderful hearing children. I have two failed relationships and am divorced and have children too. She just so happens to run a business that I have interest in so it makes easy to be around alot. It took me a few months but I finally got courage to tell her how I felt before and to say I felt that way all over again. I was so in love with her. She is just an incredibly bright smart and fun person. She said she knew I felt that way. And we did become closer and god she was still so beautiful to me and it was like a dream come true when we started to be somewhat intimate and she told me she had feelings for me. We got along fine for awhile but then we had a few arguments over dumb things and mostly because of the communication gap which though not too bad was still there. And she gave the impression by things she said and did that there was a trust issue and that I was out to wrong her. I later learned from a friend of hers that is a professional interpretor that this is common in the deaf/hearing world. Anyway over the course of several months things between us got better and then worse again. This is now about a year later. We still talk to each other and she says she still wants friendship but that if I talk to her anymore about love that she will walk away. I tell you I am trying very hard to honor her but in doing so I have become so depressed emotionally and physically because of it. It is the hardest thing in life I have ever had to do and I dont know if I even can. It is like being asked the impossible. I had my dream woman in my life and I wanted nothing more than to honor and love her for the rest of my life but now all that is gone and I cant turn back time and change anything and she I guess does not have it in her to forgive easily. It is such a shame because all who saw us together were always like wow you guys are so good together. I am still trying to hang in and hope that she will change her mind and open her heart again but I just dont know if I can keep hanging on. I know she is worth it but I am so lost on what to do.
