My friend goes and sees her counselor, not psychologist, for some help once a while. She told me that it helped her to understand her feelings. She is deaf. I encourage you to see a counselor for free.
Seeing a psychologist is not good idea. Keep in your mind, do not mention a word "Kill." The counselor or psychologist will send you to an institute (hospital) immediately if you say that one single word at once. If ask you, just say never. I don't trust a psychologist because he/she gives a pill that could make a patient rest of her/his life. The pills could screw up your life so you wouldn't want that happen yourself. I agreed with actor Tom Cruise for believing in United Church of Religious Science because he believes that a psychologist is a BS.
My sister had a counselor every two weeks. It helped her. It just relieved her problems in the past. That was three years ago.
