I have a thought running through my head that must be insane, but I will put it out there in the hope someone will understand. I am hoh now but will eventually be deaf(doctors says some years down the line but coming). I recently got angry with myself after a rough day at work (I work in a call center, I kid you not). In a moment of total fustration I wished I would just go all the way deaf and be done with it, instead of the in between stuff. Totally crazy!!