hello there,
the only thing i have in common with you is profound deafness at 19.
every aspect of our situation other than that is completely different.
however, I feel that with that one single detail being the same... i had to comment here.
i feel for you... I really do... I know what you're going through...like litterally ya know?
i've only been deaf for a little over a year (20 now) but the first thing you gotta do... and believe me, i dunno what it is you gotta do...its different for everyone. you Must get your confidence back... without it...you will not move on...
once you get it back, strut your shit like "yeah i'm deaf, but i'm the shit"... then people will take note...and everything will be good. trust me on that. once you have confidence in yourslef...others will have confidence in you.