shel worded it out better than me, I too am only one in family, NONE of them knows any signs... my kid sister might know say 5 or 10, as she's befreind a terp/deaf hubbu at her chuch but thats smells like pity to me still
my mum and I txt alot, i still have contact with dad via email , not often as does with my brother and my littlle sister but the other 2 nah,.......
right now kind of mending ways with my brother and father which is good butthere something REALLY messy like my step mom is a 'special educator" and I get really pissed off with her.....(more on conceptual/poltical/operational level) and kind of felt sick cause they spolit me with dinners and wines when i see them, (i dont ask for that) but its just turns my guts to wrenched wrecks when i knowingly they got 'rich' living off 'great jobs' (dad was a mental hospital charge nurse - now imagine how i felt as ive been shoved to full mainstream becuase of my parents staunch beliefs in normalcy) and the all know i am in uni, doing post-grad with some far fetch ideas.....they even dared to 'correct me !!!!!!!" imagine my rill but i have to reverse that pity
i pity their ignorance, i pity their shortsightness, i pity them being dumb, i pity them to consider to me as some sort of 'problem' rather than as a person. its not a problem of being 'deaf' but a problem of being seen as inferiorally different, a treatment that society have taught them how to carry out that on me.
but yeah i was just saying shel's seem to have it more dealt with than i have. But that fine, at least i know now and working on building up peace, though admittingly i find it HARD to like my family. its just so incredibly easy to hate. sometimes in a twisted way I have to remind myself of star wars, not to full to the dark side...famous words is this; Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering
so its like i dont want to suffer from torment , if i cant change my family, then id try change the ways of people's insights in so affecting families in the future instead..... then id know ive done my bit to beat the shit out of that anger
