Ok, I read the creative writing post. I am sorry for not posting sooner and I am sure I might be too late?
I feel for you - - your life is not easy. Many challenges you have over come. People suck. You learned that way too early in your life and I am so sorry for that. I imagine my 4 anfd 2 yr old going through what you did, especially in kindergarden. It scares me. You did the right thing but I am so sure the whole foster care thing was just as hard as staying home would have been. Since you have been so brave in the past, if I were you I would ask your mom (darlene?) anything and everything. It sounds to me that mostly Darlene showed you the bad side of humanity so who cares how she feels when you put her on the spot with your questions like, 'what did I ever do to you to make you treat me with disrepect and mean-ness' It's always easier for someone from the outside looking in to give advice. But I really feel your personality and strength will get you through this. I would look at this visit as the last visit. I really would. I would even ask her, 'why do you keep having these babies? From past record, you suck as a mom.' Then step back in case she wants to slap you. Meg, most people don't change. I know that is discouraging but they don't.
Please let us know how it all goes and feel free to PM/email me anytime. 
