I reluctantly trust with new guy since I become widow in Nov 2, 2006. It took me three years to anti-socialize into the Deaf Community. I need to stop feel sorry for myself to move on with my life. I realize, I could not replace from someone else with Andrew. Sometime, I am afraid to burden with their debts or involve with other their ex wives or children other side. I did not want to part his side of ex family. Some of guy didn’t want to involve with me to deal with my depression. I assume, I am too picky on the guy since I become widow.
Nowadays, I hardly become to trust with new guy. Will he be good for me and my life? Will we be last long relationship? My guts tells me that I will never marry again, may live together forever until we die.
Lick my finger up in the air, where I will be going to next the step.
