When I was in high school I used to feel the exact the same way as you felt. Hated everything about my deafness. Fast forward 20 years later, it doesnt bother me..nope I dont have a CI and I feel I dont need one. All this change in my attitude is from learning ASL and meeting hundreds of deaf people like me. Ever try considering learning ASL and interacting with the Deaf community? You would be surprised by how many people have experienced what you are experiencing now.
Now, I dont wish for that magic pill anymore and life is not so terrible anymore.
Good luck!
