soulchill
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I'm pretty anxious about my hearing test next week. I think it all starts with it being called a test. To me that means you pass or you fail. Like there's a way to study (if anyone knows the most common words for the comprehension part, let me know!). Anyway, it's like it's your fault - "You didn't do well on your hearing test." On top of sticking a label on me, they gotta make it feel like failure as well. And there's not much encouragement for this kind of ending; there's really no "you'll do better next time". I think I'd be in a better state of mind if they called it an evaluation, but that ship has sailed.
I'm a bit worried about how bad it's gotten, too. People joke about the times I say "what" or "speak up", but it's a bit scary to notice something going away. Not to mention that hearing is one of my job requirements. Not that I really need it for the most part to do what I do, there are some aspects to my job that involve knowing if something sounds good or not (fortunately things are really bad like choppy, no sound, or wrong pitch or it is OK). So far there have been other people to double-check these things and no one's made an issue of it.
Throw in my aversion to doctors, and I'm really stressed. Just a boat load of bad experiences with doctors. But hey, 50% of doctors graduated in the bottom half of their class.
It's one thing to know yourself that things are worse, but having someone else verify it just makes it that much more real. Something I really have to come to terms with.
I'm a bit worried about how bad it's gotten, too. People joke about the times I say "what" or "speak up", but it's a bit scary to notice something going away. Not to mention that hearing is one of my job requirements. Not that I really need it for the most part to do what I do, there are some aspects to my job that involve knowing if something sounds good or not (fortunately things are really bad like choppy, no sound, or wrong pitch or it is OK). So far there have been other people to double-check these things and no one's made an issue of it.
Throw in my aversion to doctors, and I'm really stressed. Just a boat load of bad experiences with doctors. But hey, 50% of doctors graduated in the bottom half of their class.
It's one thing to know yourself that things are worse, but having someone else verify it just makes it that much more real. Something I really have to come to terms with.