Yes, that. I think it's easy to accidentally say "I wish I were fully deaf" when having a brutal moment of depression than to tease out that what you actually mean is "I wish one or the other or both communities would accept me". I can't bear the term Hard of Hearing, it's right up there with other words that are so universally felt to be offensive that I probably would get banned for writing them - the N word, the R word. Makes me shudder. Probably mostly because people are always so keen to have you sorted, are you deaf or HoH and I don't know why it matters because someone HoH with a very tiny loss and eeny weeny hearing aids isn't the same as someone with two massive hearing aids who can't use the phone but we all get thrown in together.
For me personally I sometimes say I wish the high frequency part of my hearing would go away because then I could be rid of the sounds that give me pain and I might be eligible for an implant that would probably improve my hearing overall, though not sure what a CI makes of sounds that are normally distorted. I hear HF sounds OK, but they are gibberish, not at the frequencies they belong. It messes with music unbearably, and what do I do for a living? Musician!
