I have been corresponding with over 50 of my former classmates from high school lately through FB. It has been fun and interesting but a strange part of me is starting to revert to my old self...the "hearing" self. I dont share with them about the new me..the culturally Deaf parf of me that I discovered 10 years after graduating. I find myself talking about the good old days as if everything was great with me but not once, I didnt even think about bringing up my issues I had trying to fit in by being as "hearing" as I can with them. I feel that they wouldnt understand.
My best friend who is deaf who also graduated with me is also feeling the same way as I do. She said she feels herself denying her deafness when corresponding with our former classmates.
It is soo weird! I can talk about Deaf culture, ASL and blah blah here but with them, I do not even bring it up cuz it is like they represent or a part of my old life.
I have been having a lot of dreams about my old days in high school but instead of dreaming about the bad parts, I dream about the good parts. Also, thru written English, I feel like I am getting to know them like I never was able to before thru spoken English. I am discovering that there were so many things I didnt know back in high school.. like two of my classmates who were popular and everything were actually first cousins. I thought they were just good friends.
Damn...I have mixed feeling about this whole thing. My best friend says the same too...
