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I grew up HOH and lived with hearing family and went to a hearing school. I was constantly picked on and made fun of in school because I was different, I wasnt like everyone else. I got picked on from the girls, I got picked on from the guys, sometimes I even got it from the teachers.


I also got it from my family. My brother wouldnt let me hang out with him or his friends. My parents wouldnt allow me to play sports simply because I could not hear. Finally all hell come lose when I developed an eating disorder because of all the taunting, holding back, and not being allowed to be me.


I took my anger vents and frustrations out on myself because I was the one that everyone seemed to blame when things went wrong. I'll admit when your deaf and growing up in a living world its hard. All the struggles a person goes through as it is while hearing is compounded because now your deaf/hoh.


Alot of it is ignorance, and they try to justify it any way they can especially the high school kids because they know better but yet they choose to act like third graders. 9th grade was the hardest year - I never want to go back to that time and place. It got bad enough I was having panic attacks.


As an adult - ya know what? When I went off to college (moved out on bad terms with mom and dad got sick of them holding me under there thumbs all the time) it was like a door was opened up for me. I made friends for the first time in my life that I felt like were genuine and not based off a need or want. I got to blossom, it was nice while it lasted. But then a jerk took advantage of my naiveness and I ended up pregnant then he used that to get a free place to live and someone to pick on.


But now that I live back at home due to financial circumstances I feel like that I am STILL not treated as an adult but rather as a kid - all because I cannot hear as well as other people in the house. Like this morning dad said something and I said "Huh?" and he said "Nothing." then walked off.


And we had some house guests all weekend. My brother and his girlfriend were invited to dinner - I ummm wasnt. They were all going to eat out on the mountain - guess who wasnt invited - me. I felt very left out for whatever reason. I didnt say anything but I just felt like a kid. I was told to stay at home and watch Maddie all weekend. yeah I understand my responsibilities as a parent but damn I would like to have an adult conversation for once.


Ah well thats life. Someday I'll win the lottery and all my problems will be solved. :lol:


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