Always. Whenever i go swimming, you know we have to take off our CI and hearing aids when we go in water right? like taking a shower, going swimming, whatever and wherever. But for me, I always wondered what underwater when swimming sounds like. Like people splashing waves under water? or something like that. And when my hair is wet I wonder what the sounds i'm making right now is different comparing to the CI and HA to real life sounds. Sometimes I do wish i was hearing. Sometimes I believe I'm lucky enough to be deaf. I don't know if this is God's plan for me in my lifetime. I lost my hearing to autoimmune hearing loss when i was three. And I remember talking to my mom about my hearing loss when i was 8.
"Mom?" -me
"Yes?"-my mom
"Will I able to hear again in the future?"-Me scared and nervous
My mom sighs and looks at me.
"No honey, I'm sorry. Your hearing won't be back." -my mom sad, and hugging me. I start to be sad.
It was hard. But I guess that its something god has in plan for me.
