I will arrangment to cochlear implant. I can handle to my cochlear implant,.
That is important to really reason choose decision law. that is very serious reason important to go to see family doctor. I will talk to arrangment to my implant. whatever I do it I change my choice right human.
Respect to people. I don't need to depend on my parents no way I want to stronger advise for my implant. I let know I will talk Dr.Westerberg or Dr.Derald Oldring, alberta of University or British Of University Hospital.
You are happy yourself reason your choice with speech oral and I can skills voice speak to people. I like to treat to other people is happy. reason I have opinion my reason I decision to strong because I help you encourage to you I want to fun joy. I am very happy..
Be positive to cochlear implant is upgrade is pretty clever good idea. I am proud of people surgeon is fix expert to skills put implant..
I have to contact to my doctor. I will arrangment to strong doctor agree or disagree I don't know when I am not sure I know difficult reason important to cochlear implant.
Travis...
First off, I want to say I respect your feelings 100%, ok? I am only wanting to encourage you to think hard about this, this is a very important and serious and critical decision that could affect you big time, it could affect you either positively or very adversely. And especially with your previous experience with the first implant. I am worried that you might have a repeat of the same negative experience, that you could be in for a very big letdown/big disappointment. Do you truly feel it is worth all this trouble?
Do you remember sometime last year or maybe longer ago (I cannot remember the exact date) when you began complaining quite a lot about your old implant, that you had severe headaches, that it made you sick, things like that? I also believe you complained about tinnitus, too, am I correct? My memory is not the best, so forgive me if I am wrong about the tinnitus. You were so desperate to have the implant removed. You worked so hard to find a doctor who would agree to surgically remove your implant for you. You hated your implant, and you did NOT want to get re-implanted when you got your old implant removed, you simply only wanted the old implant removed. After a long, emotional, and difficult battle with the doctors and with the Canada's health care system you finally succeeded in finding a doctor who agreed to remove your implant for you, and you got it removed.
Now, you've had a change of heart, and you want to get re-implanted? Why? You totally hated having the original implant, you complained about absolutely everything about your old implant, you totally wanted it gone. You gave us all the impression that you wanted to be implant-free, that you would never want another implant, that you wanted to never hear another sound ever again.
Why the change of heart? You say you want to hear, to learn to speak, to learn to understand speech and environmental sounds. Why now? You didn't want to hear anything before, you wanted to be truly completely deaf before. What made you change your mind? What made you regret having your old implant removed?
Travis, I have to be very honest and frank with you. You may not like what I have to say, but if I didn't say anything and you got re-implanted and it was a failure, I would feel absolutely horrible for not encouraging you to rethink this - I would not feel right at all if I didn't encourage you to remember and consider the same possible serious consequences of being re-implanted that happened with your first implant. I have major concerns for you. I have absolutely nothing against you, ok? But you have had many MAJOR issues with your old implant. I am afraid that you might be very disappointed and very extremely let down if your new implant does not work out to your expectations, especially if you have such high expectations, and if you start to have problems again like you did with your old implant. Especially since your old implant did not work out so well at all, it sounds like you did not get very much positive benefits if any from your old implant, even if it was just environmental sounds - you did NOT sound happy at all with your old one - you absolutely hated it, from what it sounded like. Are you completely 100% prepared for the serious letdown/disappointment? What exactly are you expecting from the new implant if you do get approved for one? You certainly sound like you are expecting quite a lot, but I don't want to "make an ass out of u and me", so I am asking you if you could please list all your expectations of the re-implant on here in this thread so that we can have a better idea of why you want to get re-implanted NOW after you went to so much trouble to get your old implant removed quite a while ago. We want to understand why. I am also afraid you are going to be very disappointed because I don't really see a good CI surgeon with actual good ethics in his/her own right mind ever re-implanting a person like you who totally hated your first implant in the first place and who went to so much trouble to have it removed and also did NOT want to be re-implanted with a current/newer generation/model/brand of CI when you got your old implant removed. It is very likely you may get a NO for an answer. Are you prepared to hear that answer? Also, don't forget that many CI clinics might want to do a psychological evaluation on you to see if you are a suitable candidate for a re-implantation, especially if they see in your medical records that you went to so much trouble to get your old implant removed and refusing to get re-implanted when you got your old implant removed - they are going to think "if he refused to get re-implanted when he got his old implant removed, then why did he change his mind just now after all this and decides he wants to be re-implanted now?" They will think that it does not make sense and they will want to know why. They will wonder what is going on in your mind. These are the questions they are going to be asking. I know that it is completely your decision to refuse the re-implantation when you got your old implant removed, and I totally support that, and that is totally fine with me. BUT...what I wonder is why you now have changed your mind and want to get re-implanted NOW, after all this time and after all this trouble to get the old implant removed, after all the problems you had with the first implant, and not wanting to get re-implanted before? What changed? If they see that you went to so much trouble to get your old implant removed and never wanted a re-implantation at all in the first place, especially if they learn of the reasons why you went to so much trouble to get your old implanted removed, they might not be very keen on re-implanting you. What if you find out that you don't get what you were expecting, you could end up very disappointed, you could end up getting sick again with all the headaches and all that stuff like before, and especially with your mental health issues as of recently, this whole re-implantation and activation process might have a very negative impact on you. Are you sure it is a wise decision to get re-implanted? I urge you to think hard on this one, it is not something to be taken lightly, especially in a situation such as yours. I know that it is your body and your decision, but you really should re-consider it. I'm not trying to discourage you from getting re-implanted again if that is what you really want, but rather what I wanted to do is get you to seriously re-consider the re-implantation and realize the possible consequences - is it a good idea in your situation or not? Especially with what happened before? Aren't you worried that it might happen again? You were very upset, very unhappy, angry, confused, you had so many negative feelings about the original implant. Are you willing to risk all that again? You really did sound like you had a terrible experience. Normally I am all for re-implantation if the person really wants it, normally I have no issues, but this case is different, and it has me concerned. I know that ultimately that it is your decision, I only want you to think really hard on this one, ok? I am not against CIs at all but I am very concerned for your well-being in this case - you had a very negative and upsetting experience. Usually people who have had negative/upsetting experiences with their CIs who have gotten their implants removed, they usually are happy with the decision to have their CIs removed, and they usually do not change their minds, they usually are happy to live their lives in total silence for the rest of their lives. That's usually what happens. It is rare to hear of someone change their mind again and want to be re-implanted again after having such a negative experience. But you...you changed your mind. I know it's your body, I know it's your right. I understand that. I know you said you want to hear sounds again, want to understand speech, want to learn to speak...but why do you want to get re-implanted again after all this much trouble and after all the problems with the first implant? And risk all the negative effects that you had from your original implant? Why? Please, I would like to know in depth of why you changed your mind? What made you change your mind? What happened? I am curious.
Do yourself two huge favors and get a piece of paper and a pen. On one side, write "pros" and then on the other side, write "cons". "Pros" are good or positive things that you list that you think could result from the re-implantation. "Cons" are negative or bad things that you list that you are aware about that could result from the re-implantation especially considering your bad experience with your first implant. Do your research, and be completely honest with yourself, and list EVERYTHING that you can think of, even if they are negative or bad. Then, look at both sides, and see how many things "pros" has and how many things "cons" has. The side with the most things in the list is the one that tells you if it is a good idea or a bad idea to get re-implanted. It's very crucially important that you do this. This is proven to be one of many effective ways of helping you come to an appropriate decision regarding serious situations such as the re-implantation. But don't depend on the pros/cons alone - the other huge favor to yourself would be to consult with a professional, especially if you have a therapist or a psychiatrist or psychologist that you are seeing, I strongly suggest that you discuss all this with him/her. He or she can help you make the right decision for yourself. No one is forcing you to do anything - we are only encouraging you to think hard on this. I don't want you to be very let down or be very disappointed and slip into a severe depression when you get re-implanted and get activated and you realize you did not get what you want, or you have had the new implant for a while and you start to realize that you are not getting what you are expecting from the new implant. Also, to be quite honest, I think you are setting your expectations a bit too high - at least that is what I noticed from what you have said in your recent posts and threads.
With that all said - please think long and hard as this is not something to be taken lightly, and especially in a case such as yours. Again, do you really truly feel that getting re-implanted is truly worth all this trouble? Please think long and hard about this. This is NOT magic. There are no magic tricks. The CI surgeon cannot pull any magic tricks out of his hat and make you understand all speech and understand all environmental sounds and make you speak perfectly, and the CI audiologist cannot either. That takes TONS and TONS and TONS of training for so many years, and at your age, it is going to be extremely difficult. It is NOT easy.
Have a good day and take care, and PLEASE think long and hard about this, ok?
