I am just looking for some insight. I have a progressive loss and I am having the craziest of thoughts. I am sick of being in the middle of being hearing and deaf and lately have had the feeling that if I an going to eventually go deaf. Would it just come and get it over with instead of the slow slide off the abyss. Am I crazy to feel this way?
Am I crazy to feel this way?
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not crazy, its fear of being isolated and thats totally understandable. ardYou are feeling a sort of crisis, only because the reality seemed too real, you sometime (we all do it) hallucinate for a bit, like its hard to make sense of it, and its also probaly fear of failing to fit in, kind of like a wish that all the hard work is not needed. Indeed, the reality is (Deaf) people who grew up Deaf will find it hard to understand, (or dont understand) what's its like being a fish flew out of water suddenly - literally, - and not many people really do understand this properly. I mean Deaf people wont suddenly come and say ' welcome, and we'd show you around', it doesnt work like this, (ideally would be nice but people are selfish, as Id say humans are selfish/social creatures, just like wolves)...
so your 'craziness' is not crazy at all, its a reaction to something that you ARE going to have to face, and the hieghening of fear isnt going to make it better. Just start to make a start, i mean, you know what you like and enjoy rie ght? keep that, you know your views on things like voting, colour, films, but when it comes to music- its not about 'what id sounds like' its more about what image it advertises, thats bit you can keep and you'd start seeing the whole world thru deaf's eye, if not Deaf yet....you can make is easier for yourself, make one freind at time, like you would (and did) in the hearing world...you still have all the time to get used to it...
lastly, its normal to panic, and panic is not nice, scary even, its like fear of the unknown, and the reason i said all above, about taking things what you know with you, its a strategy to comfort yourself into a new journey in life...
just take it easy (easy said than done at times i know)...but do remind yourself, its NOT the end of the world, each day as it comes is a new day, some days is gonna be shit, others great that makes you feel was all worth it, then other days makes you feel what's the point. feelings are just reminders that's we're real and alive, that's all. You are not a robot, or an accident in life.
You'd be fine.
so your 'craziness' is not crazy at all, its a reaction to something that you ARE going to have to face, and the hieghening of fear isnt going to make it better. Just start to make a start, i mean, you know what you like and enjoy rie ght? keep that, you know your views on things like voting, colour, films, but when it comes to music- its not about 'what id sounds like' its more about what image it advertises, thats bit you can keep and you'd start seeing the whole world thru deaf's eye, if not Deaf yet....you can make is easier for yourself, make one freind at time, like you would (and did) in the hearing world...you still have all the time to get used to it...
lastly, its normal to panic, and panic is not nice, scary even, its like fear of the unknown, and the reason i said all above, about taking things what you know with you, its a strategy to comfort yourself into a new journey in life...
just take it easy (easy said than done at times i know)...but do remind yourself, its NOT the end of the world, each day as it comes is a new day, some days is gonna be shit, others great that makes you feel was all worth it, then other days makes you feel what's the point. feelings are just reminders that's we're real and alive, that's all. You are not a robot, or an accident in life.
You'd be fine.
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Losing your hearing isn't going to get you into any exclusive group, you can't buy friendship.
Having said that, you are in a unique position, if you have profound deafness you can choose when to use the hearing aid. You can step over the deafness line any time you want and still come back.
It would be your little secret.
Having said that, you are in a unique position, if you have profound deafness you can choose when to use the hearing aid. You can step over the deafness line any time you want and still come back.
It would be your little secret.
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No I don't think so, being in the middle is extremely frustrating.
How bad is your loss now? When I was in the severe range it wasn't nearly so hard. Now that I'm profound in one ear and profound to no response in the other.....it is soooo much harder. I don't feel so much in the middle anymore, because it has become such a struggle to try be "hearing".
I sometimes wish I had just been born deaf. I wouldn't have had to make this adjustment, I wouldn't feel the loss of my hearing, I wouldn't miss it. My family would more than likely have learned ASL for me as a child, I would have grown up with deaf people nd made deaf friends. I wouldn't feel the isolation that I do now. I don't think I'm crazy for wishing that.
How bad is your loss now? When I was in the severe range it wasn't nearly so hard. Now that I'm profound in one ear and profound to no response in the other.....it is soooo much harder. I don't feel so much in the middle anymore, because it has become such a struggle to try be "hearing".
I sometimes wish I had just been born deaf. I wouldn't have had to make this adjustment, I wouldn't feel the loss of my hearing, I wouldn't miss it. My family would more than likely have learned ASL for me as a child, I would have grown up with deaf people nd made deaf friends. I wouldn't feel the isolation that I do now. I don't think I'm crazy for wishing that.
Hearing Loss at present
Left Ear starts at 70dbs 250htz and slopes to 115dbs at 8000htz.
Right Ear starts at 75dbs 250hts and slopes to 120dbs at 800htz.
Speech Discrimination 44% right 64% left.
currently using Oticon Hit Pros both ears.
Left Ear starts at 70dbs 250htz and slopes to 115dbs at 8000htz.
Right Ear starts at 75dbs 250hts and slopes to 120dbs at 800htz.
Speech Discrimination 44% right 64% left.
currently using Oticon Hit Pros both ears.
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You still waiting for hearing aids that are more suited to your loss then?
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Angel1989 and I lost our hearing literally overnight.....it wasn't gradual....sort of like "sock it to me!"...
I can and do understand how you're feeling....I cried many tears over it and I've no sure-fire way of telling anyone the best way or the less hurtful way to go....
All I can say is that you know it's coming...so perhaps getting more involved with the deaf and HOH might somewhat lessen the blow....
And having an understanding friend who will cry with you helps a lot too!...Feel sure many members here at AD will and are here for you too....
I can and do understand how you're feeling....I cried many tears over it and I've no sure-fire way of telling anyone the best way or the less hurtful way to go....
All I can say is that you know it's coming...so perhaps getting more involved with the deaf and HOH might somewhat lessen the blow....
And having an understanding friend who will cry with you helps a lot too!...Feel sure many members here at AD will and are here for you too....
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I did lose my hearing overnight, completely deaf just like that!!! It was and still is a huge challenge. You have some time, so I would do what you can to make you feel ready. This site and many of the people here were my support group. I don't know anyone who is deaf.
Hubby and I like Lifeprint.com, it will teach you 100 basic signs that you may need every day. Also try watching TV with closed captioning on and maybe that might help a little.
Don't be afraid to ask us questions. Good luck!!!
Hubby and I like Lifeprint.com, it will teach you 100 basic signs that you may need every day. Also try watching TV with closed captioning on and maybe that might help a little.
Don't be afraid to ask us questions. Good luck!!!