Wow. Thanks for all the information! Have no fear, I'm not expecting to be diagnosised here...I just needed to vent and to express some of my fustration at myself. It can be very difficult to know rationally that I should be able to do thus and such or should be feeling this way, when, in fact, I sometimes seem to have no control over anything, least of all myself. I don't mean that as an excuse. I mess up and it is my fault. I know that. I'm just saying that I wish I didn't feel so trapped and so chaotic, especially when people are depending on me.
There has been a habit of mine to focus on my forgetfulness and anxiety, and usually that's the majority of what doctors hear about from me. These two things become my focus, for whatever reason. I will take my time and write out a list over several days of all the things that are bothering me and I'll see where that leads.
Thank you so much Hear Again for your thought out replies to my questions. I really appriecate that. It's helpful to know your story, and I want to offer you a big hug and encourage you to hang in there. Thank you as well to Jillio, Botts, and AdamsMomma for your input. This stuff has been going on so long and I am so confused and fustrated by myself that I sometimes feel quite sure there is no help. But I will make another attempt on Tuesday with my doctor and let you know how it goes.
