The New Year resolution quit smoking hey I hope it works for you! You never know which try will be the "one" ...
I tried and failed so many times it became woven into my life like a bad thread. If I could have measured my self esteem it would have taken a micrometer. It turned into desperate measures for a desperate situation.
I realized I was as much of a junkie as a junkie. I locked myself in the house with a pile of one man against all odds books- westerns and so on, and a wide variety of crunchy snacks, lots of water, no telephone and sweated it out for days. The sheets were ruined with yellowish sweat. It was hell. And then I started again. It is not just about quitting it is about staying quit.
I have been off those blankin' things for a decade now but have not forgotten what it took, whoa..
