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As most of you know Ive gone through some shitty stuff in my 24 years around the sun.
I had abuse in my youth, I had no highschool sweetheart, I had one very bad abusive marriage, one relationship that was beautiful but ended badly, another relationship that was based solely on sex and alcohol, another that just wasnt right.
It seems as though I have this gaurd up where I dont readily accept men as well as I do women. Oddly enough, Ive had closer relationships with women than I have men all my life.
It seems though there is this void Im longing to fill. I want adult companionship, a genuine relationship that is delicate as much as it is intricate.
I just feel incomplete at the moment. Not sure why, but Ive felt this way for almost a year now, like I want something to fill that hole in my heart.
I want to be serious with school and work, and motherhood, but I also want to find the 'One'.
I find that marriage is a joke, mainly because my first time around left quite a sour taste in my mouth.
I just wish I knew how to fill the void, but with what?
I had abuse in my youth, I had no highschool sweetheart, I had one very bad abusive marriage, one relationship that was beautiful but ended badly, another relationship that was based solely on sex and alcohol, another that just wasnt right.
It seems as though I have this gaurd up where I dont readily accept men as well as I do women. Oddly enough, Ive had closer relationships with women than I have men all my life.
It seems though there is this void Im longing to fill. I want adult companionship, a genuine relationship that is delicate as much as it is intricate.
I just feel incomplete at the moment. Not sure why, but Ive felt this way for almost a year now, like I want something to fill that hole in my heart.
I want to be serious with school and work, and motherhood, but I also want to find the 'One'.
I find that marriage is a joke, mainly because my first time around left quite a sour taste in my mouth.
I just wish I knew how to fill the void, but with what?